hello sunshine, its been far too long since you were reborn. from paper to code, you've always been here. though, the bloodshed shall be lessened, your impact will be greater. lets start this new page off with a party. neon lights and loud music ringing from these hollow walls. god i missed it. i missed you. a donation shall be provided sometime shortly, i just need to work out a few things with her. i will see you again soon.
we speak once again, sunshine. yes, i am mostly alive, i have been through more troubling times since we last spoke. i wish i could go back and fix this. just one fucking minute would fix this. at least i have my addiction. hahaha,,,, you don't know me. sometime, sometime, sometime.
hello sunshine, what a day for you yesterday! i jest. things seem to just keep turning for the worse, what do i do? nothing. sit there and take it... for now... i will need to figure out my final resting place. perhaps underneath a lovely orange tree, they sprout around this time in california, true "home", maybe. i had a candle that smelt exactly how the flower does on an orange tree, it didn't last long enough. tragic in a few regards. i will see you again soon, sunshine. be there for me.
only 19 cuts tonight. how poetic. when will i learn my lesson. hypocrisy, hah.
hello, this is the old me, rather, the real me. at least partly. dear sunshine, do you recall all those times i've added to you? it's hard to believe all that is from me. hahah, literally from my heart. at first i thought that these drugs helped me, hell, it was even offered because of pain. i can't imagine the amount of pain i would never have gone through if i just said no. oh well, it has it's benefits, aside from the fact that i feel sick constantly, it fucked up my future career, as well as my brain. how did we get here? idk, i'm gonna die soon anyways... at least it feels that way.
hello again. she knows! hahaha. it was only a matter of time... things are so messy. at least i have my chronic :D! this hits to you guys... i've only got so much time left. wish me luck.
ungrateful.
hello sunshine, what a day. the real ones know what happened today 12 years ago. aside from that things seem to be winding down,, or maybe i'm just losing myself. who knows. not you, or YOU. jesus. i cannot fail any more. i can't. why. i try SO hard!? if you don't see any more updates after this you probably know what happened. see you later, sunshine. hopefully.
good morning, sunshine. today is unlike any other, yet, all the same it it's sickening ways. why today? judgement day awaits us all, i guess. no hype for now, just misery and self doubt. wish me luck
first day of a new type of hell. it looks like i'll be gone for a while.
new voices in my head. it can't be more than just me? no. dearest sunshine, remember those sacrifices, be kind to me.
sometimes i wonder why i was placed in this shithole. born to die. fucking cruel. always too late. the sooner the better, at least so it seems. lots of thinking. times should get better, sunshine.
i found you. i thought you were gone. you thought i was gone. i thought i was gone. this is gonna be a rough one. it's been 9 months, sunshine. things have got worse, that's for sure. at least it was cool while it lasted.... wait.,.. we're just getting started here. did you think id give up that quickly? i have eyes and ears everywhere. believe me. the day we part ways was the day i became enlightened. fuck you. you made me.